Honey Cakes :)

The visions left inside me are slowly fading.

With blood shot eyes I watch you sleeping
The warmth I feel beside me is slowly fading
Would she hear me if I called her name?
Would she hold me if she knew my shame?

Well, I should re-open my Lj & start blogging there.
I miss Lj pretty badly :(
Livejournal!

Vanished from the world of internet-surfing & now I'm back.
Kind of on hiatus?
Sad to say, I wasn't busy studying.
I was busy doing some stupid crap stuffs that I don't even know what I did.
Damn saddening.
It's only 3days left to Final-years :(
Time to mug really hard already!

It isn't the time to start recap-ing the times which I didn't blog, so they'll be in my memories & won't be known.
As for the pictures, I'll upload when I feel like it :)

I can feel a sense of accomplishment in me, 'cuz I'm currently doing up the third History essay in the list.
Weaknesses of the League of Nations.
Please cheer & congratulate me! :)

I'm a happy happy girl today :)
Honey cakes finally managed to wake up on time & fetch me to school.
However the weather isn't doing much wonders as it was pouring the moment we reached the ground floor.
I'm sorry baby, for causing you to walk in the rain & shiver with cold.
Thank you for protecting me though you're already so drenched yourself.
You're the sweetest boyf. I'd ever have.
I love you, honey cakes!

There's always something different going wrong
The path I walk is in the wrong direction
There's always someone fucking hanging on
Can anybody help me make things better?

Happy Sixteenth Birthday, Dearest :)

♥Birthday Boy.

I open my eyes with a sigh of relief as the warmth of summer sunlight dances around me

I dream of the winter in my heart turning to spring
While the ice gives way under my feet
And so I drown with the sun

Another 4hours more to Honey's 16th birthday! :)
Bet he must be so anticipating & excited, no?
I love you, honey honey pie!
Happy happy boy gotten his Red & Black skinnies & 2 tops.
While I, have gotten my Red skinnies & a Little Miss ______ top which he wouldn't tell me what he got for me.
I've Damn happy of course! :)
I'm in all smiles(?) Or is it with?
K, whatever.

Went to study with Nuan ting & Susan at Loyang Point in the afternoon.
& My sweetest specially delivered his dying iPod to me though his friends were waiting.
Thanks baby!
Study plan rather unsuccessful, 'cuz I've only manged to finish one Social Studies essay.
:(

Yesterday, 21st September2007.

Caught a movie with Honey! :)
Rushed to central to get a small cake for Honey.
Blah blah blah.
Watched Underdog!
The song was nice :)
There's no need to fear, Underdog is here!

Walked around, then went to Loyang point for tuition.
Sat at the playground, & Darling ate his "birthday cake".
Sang him a birthday song, & he cried!
Yeah, he was so touched, & also the first time :)
I shouldn't be typing this though :X
Laid at the slide to see the moon, 'cuz there was no stars.
Finally he carried me up from the slide :)
How sweet!

Kean, Marcus & Sean were there spying on him.
Hahaha!
Bought Oreo-crush & went for tuition.
Xoxo :)

I've been burning in water and drowning in flame
To prove you wrong and scare you away
I admit my defeat and want back home
In your heart under the rose

A little more here & there, a beautiful painting of love fills the room.

Hillary said I could copy this, so I stole the whole chunk :)

Things which most girls like but half the time guys won't really do it.

1- Touch her WAIST
2- TALK to her
3- Share SECRETS
4- Give HER your jacket
5- Kiss her SLOWLY
ARE YOU REMEMBERING THIS?

6- HUG her
7- HOLD her
8- LAUGH with her
9- Invite HER somewhere
10-Let her be WITH you when you're with your friends

KEEP READING

11-SMILE with her
12-Take PICTURES with her
13-Pull her onto your LAP
14-When she says she loves you more, DENY IT. Fight back
15-When her FRIENDS say I love her more than you, deny it. Fight back & hug her tight so she can't get to her friends. It makes her feel loved

ARE YOU THINKING OF SOMEONE?

16-Always hug her & SAY "I love you" when you see her
17-Kiss her UNEXPECTEDLY
18-HUG HER FROM BEHIND AROUND THE WAIST! :D
19-Tell her she's BEAUTIFUL!
20-TELL her the way you feel about her!

OH & ONE LAST THING YOU NEED TO SHOW HER YOU MEAN IT

21-Open doors for her, walk her to her car- it makes her feel protected, plus it never hurts to act like a GENTLEMAN
22-Tell her she means everything to you, but MEAN it
23-If it seems like there is something wrong, ask her- if she denies something being wrong, it means she doesn't want to talk about it- so just HUG her
24-Make her FEEL loved
25-Kiss her in front of OTHER girls you know!!!!

WE MIGHT DENY IT BUT WE ACTUALLY LIKE & KINDA WANT YOU TO TICKLE US

26-Don't lie to HER.
27-DON'T cheat on her.
28-Take her ANYWHERE she wants
29-text or call her in the morning & tell her have a good day at work {or school}, & how much you MISS her.
30-Be there for her when ever she needs you, & even when she doesn't need you, just be there so she'll know that she can ALWAYS count on you.

ARE YOU STILL READING THIS? YOU BETTER
BE, IT'S IMPORTANT

31. Hold her close when she's cold so she can hold YOU too.
32. When you are ALONE hold her close & kiss her.
33. Kiss her on the CHEEK; (it will give her the hint that you want to kiss her).
34. While in the movies, put your arm around her and then she will automatically put her head on your shoulder, then lean in and tilt her chin up & kiss her LIGHTLY.
35. Don't EVER tell her to leave even jokingly or act like you're mad. If she's upset, comfort her.

REMEMBER ALL THESE THINGS WHEN YOU ARE
WITH HER NEXT

36. When people DISS her, stand up for her.
37. Look deep into her EYES and tell her you love her.
38. Lay down under the STARS and put her head on your chest so she can listen to the steady beat of your heart, Link your fingers together while you whisper to her as she rests her eyes and listens to you.
39. When walking next to each other grab her HAND.
40. When you hug her HOLD her in your arms as long as possible

MAKE SURE SHE KNOWS SHES LOVED

41. Call or text her at night to wish her SWEET DREAMS
42. COMFORT her when she cries and wipe away her tears.
43. Take her for LONG walks at night.
44. ALWAYS Remind her how much you love her.

You'll never know when she needs just a
lil more love.

This is so sweet :)
A very long post already, I'll just end here.
♥Agm :)

When nights were clear, you were the first star that I'd see.

(My Bo-gay cousin!)

You used to talk to me like
I was the only one around.
You used to lean on me like
The only other choice was falling down.
You used to walk with me like
We had nowhere we needed to go,
Nice and slow, to no place in particular.

Monday bluesssss ):
Being lethargic in class isn't good for EOYs that are chasing after our heels.
Booo ):

A rather bad start of the day, however everything was alright during recess.
:D
& Poor Marcus lost his link cable.
No more battles among one another, no more trading of Pokemons!
They even thought it was So & so who stole the thing.
._.

A really hilarious thing happened to Vannesa, but if I say it here, she'd probably kill me.
:D
Our class had PE today, & they played soccer in the muddy field resulting in muddy, brown shoes.
Then, they cleaned it with toilet paper from the toilet & threw them into the waste-paper basket in our class.
Vannesa was talking to Samantha Sim & accidentally kicked the basket.
Without knowing, she stepped on a strip of toilet paper, & dragged the thing back to her seat!
Mahirah was definitely laughing her ass off.
While I, was reading my book & didn't realise anything.
Vannesa then asked for my help & told me the whole story.
I started laughing hysterically as well, & she said "I hate you all!" & gave that pig-look-alike face.
Very very hilarious don'cha think?
I'm so sorry :D

Well I should be studying for my Physics test tomorrow, but I'm too tired to.
My eyelids are so heavy, they may just shut anytime.
): This is B.A.D!

We used to have this figured out;
We used to breathe without a doubt.
When nights were clear, you were the first star that I'd see.
We used to have this under control.
We never thought.
We used to know.
At least there's you, and at least there's me.
Can we get this back?
Can we get this back to how it used to be?

☺Agm

Forgetting? All the hurt inside you have learned to hide so well.

I dreamed I was missing
You were so scared
But no one would listen cause no one else cared

Well, my grand-uncle was cremated this afternoon.
We kids couldn't go to send him off, so I'm at my aunty's place since morning.
Pigging-out as usual, eat, eat & continue eating.
We're huge gluttons!(:

& Obviously it's the practice of mine to ask for permission to stay over.
I've brought everything i thought I'd need, clothes, Gameboy, handphone, contact-lens container, etc.
Very well-prepared I know, & I've succeeded!
If not I'd have to take bus 109 home at such a late hour.
Alone.

Still my Momma was understanding e
nough to allow me to stay for the night.
I'm a happy happy kid once again! (:

After my dreaming
I woke with this fear
What am I leaving when I'm done here?

Agm (:

I'm too sober to deal with you running over your same pathetic cliche lines.

(This is Vannesa, looking closely at the cap, it says "Beardy" ._. )


Just like the lady in the blue dress,
You've got cigarettes on your breath,
Hairspray and some cheap perfume
I'll put a little sour in your sweet
You've got so much fucking tongue in cheek
You want what you could never have

TGIF! (:
However there's loads of Math assignments I have to complete.
Blame it on my laziness this few days.
(sigh)
3tests & 2 English papers next week.
They're driving me nuts!

Poor Vannesa has got terrible cramps during the day, hope you're feeling better already!♥
I'm wearing Boyfriend's super-duper big polo-tee.
Got to go for the funeral so, no choice.
It's a really good reason to borrow shirt from others though, because I really have no plain white/black tees.
Wearing this feels great, the smell of him still so strong.
Yummy! ♥xoxo

I shouldn't be saying this, but my Momma's getting more naggy by the day!
Even my Daddy can't stand it.
Hope I wouldn't be like that in the future ._.
I'm sorry, Momma!

Gotta leave at 3pm to rush over to Hougang to meet my aunty.
Then leave for Ang Mo Kio.
I hate lonely bus-rides, especially long ones.
):

Well in any case, I still miss Darling so badly )):
Random, but true (:

You say, that you want respect
Well then you better get some for yourself
'Cause all, that I see right now
Is someone who's lost and insecure

She takes my last breath, you took my last breath.

I'm sorry for every apology
but you'll never know how much you mean to me
until you put me in the ground
until my body is found
until the day I'm buried

This blog is getting boring, it's time to close this down.
Don't really bear to though, it's kind of like my personal space?
)):

The EOYs are coming in real fast, EL papers are on the 21st September, whereas the rest starts on the 1st of October.
Okay, this is damn horrible, I haven't started mugging a single piece of shit!
))):

I've handed in a lousy piece of expository essay & I'm mourning over it.
It would definitely disgust Miss Lee & scare her out of her wits.
That's mere exaggeration, but my essay writing is not good in the first place so it doesn't make much of a difference.
)))):

Here's something hilarious, I almost walked out of the bathroom without wearing my shorts.
Laugh your ass off, I'm not embarrassed (:
Thankfully I saw it hanging on the bar(?) before walking out.
If not I'd seriously come out half-naked.

Dearest is ill, like again!
Get well soon okay? N-levels are coming already!
I don't think you'd read this either, it's pointless too.
I miss miss miss you to the core, Darling!

You'll find me at the end of my rope
hanging on your every word
I'm finally getting the hang
of getting hung up on girls like you

And I drive, drive these roads that made our memories.

I'm back, back in town
and everything has changed
I feel, feel let down
The faces stay the same
I see, see shadows
Of who we used to be
And I drive, drive so slow
Through this memory

Ahh yeah, a new look (:
New font, new colour & whatsoever you see changes in.
Okay, here's a really sad news, my grandpa's brother died of cancer.
(sighs)

Though I don't really know him, but I've seen him a few times during New Year & some other occasions. He was so well & all.
All of a sudden, his leg started to hurt.
Went to the hospital, discovered he had stage four cancer.
Couldn't walk, couldn't sit, couldn't even stand.
Cancerous cells spread, till now, he's gone.

Life really makes fun of people.
From a healthy person, to someone so weak & sickly.
Later on I still gotta visit his funeral, hopefully I won't cry & make a mess.
I hope you'll rest in peace.
(:

When we were only kids
And we were best of friends
And we hoped for the best
And let go of the rest

Nothing compares to a quiet evening alone, just the one two of us who's counting on.

I got a lot to say to you
Yeah, I got a lot to say
I noticed your eyes are always glued to me
Keeping them here
And it makes no sense at all

A very very interesting day spent by Changi with my cousins & grandparents.
Uh-huh(:
Had brunch at this market there, bought prawns, & we went fishing!
Well in fact they fished.
An interesting to spend a weekend + loads of family bonding!
Greatly recommended!

Running away from hornets is sure fun.
Huge black & yellow insects started to chase after us because of the prawns we're holding.
With this, my grandma killed 2 of them for revenge as my grandpa has got bitten before.
From one side of the river, to the bridge, to the other side of the river, & lastly under the bridge.
Saw Onnisa there as well.
He was walking here & there, ostensibly to be looking for crabs?
:D

No fish caught though, lots of experience gained(:
Went around catching mud-skippers, crabs, some shell-with-something-living-inside-of-it, really really cool!
No pictures taken though, 'cuz most of the time I was either on the phone or text-ing.
(;

I ♥ Capital A, & Capital A ♥ Dumb Dumb.
Credits to my Boyfriend, Alvin T.

They taped over your mouth
Scribbled out the truth with their lies
You little spies
They taped over your mouth
Scribbled out the truth with their lies
You little spies

♥xxxooo

There are certain people you just keep coming back to.

The holidays are so boring.
I can't text, AlvinT. is such a pig, I'm too lazy to study.
Eventually I'd be back to using the comp for 5 Fucking hours.
This shows how horrible I am.
):
When can I ever change? Am I that hopeless?
Darn it man.

She is right in front of you
You begin to wonder could you find a better one
Compared to her now she's in question

And all at once the crowd begins to sing
Sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same

Maybe you want her maybe you need her
Maybe you started to compare to someone not there

Maybe you want her maybe you need her
Maybe you had her maybe you lost her to another
To another

If only you could be right here by my side, home wouldn't seem so far from here.

Isn't my cousin adorable? 2of her teeth dropped out, & now she's bo-gay.
I'm being so mean here, after-all she's my cousin right?
Save her some face man! ;D

On this coldest of January nights
We drive out past the runway and watch the planes go flying by
The runway lights are the deepest blue like the colors of your eyes
So close them tight and kiss me one last time

A rather eventful day I had today, 'cuz I've studied!
About half a chapter of Acids, Bases & Alkali done within 1hour?
Horrible right?
An hour & not even completing 1whole chapter!
Perhaps the chapter is long, but it's not an excuse!
)':

I'm pretty stunned by this, this has really broken my record.
Not good, this is a bad omen.
Geraldine, it's time to buck up manxzxz!

I'm gaining weight! All thanks to my beloved grandmama who's cooking good-food every single.
Today's bee-hoon was awesome!
+ Cheese hotdogs are yum-yum!
& All these are the cause of my weight-gain ):
Sinful isn't it? But who can ever resist great food?
Definitely not me!

Done Vera's blogskin already (:
Hope she likes it!♥

I miss Alvin T.
He's watching TV! (:
After a long hibernation from last night I dunno when till 1+ he woke from his hibernation for lunch, & he went back to sleep till 3+ again.
My goodness, ain't my Boyfriend one of a kind? (:
But I like!
Hopefully the huge quarrel yesterday has made our hearts fonder.
♥♥♥Triple xoxo-s.
I love you!

If you could go anywhere right now
Where would you go?
And would you miss me when you get there?
There's no place that I would rather be
Please don't let me go falling from the sky
The "fasten seatbelt" sign just needs to go out
If only you could be right here by my side
Home wouldn't seem so far from here

Libra.

LIBRA - The Lame One (the Balance - 23 September - 23 October)
* Nice to everyone they meet.*
Their Love is one of a kind.* Silly, fun and sweet.*
Have own unique appeal.*
Most caring person you will ever meet!* (So untrue, not applicable for me I guess.)
However not the kind of person you want to mess with...you might end up crying.

Take the pain out of love and then love won't exist.

& In any case, you shouldn't be calling your own girlfriend "cheebye".
Damn Myself, I'm the world's greatest loser.

You were the only face I'd ever known.
I was the light from the lamp on the floor,
and only as bright as you wanted me to be.
But, I am no gentleman, I can be a prick,
and I do regret more than I admit.
You have been followed back to the same place I sat with you drink for drink.
Take the pain out of love and then love won't exist.

Everything we had, everything we had,
everything we had, everything we had is no longer there.

It was the only place I'd never known.
Turned off the light on my way out the door.
I will be watching wherever you go,
through the eyes of a fly on the wall.
You have been followed back to the same place I sat with you drink for drink.
Take the pain out of love and then love won't exist.

Peeeek-chas; edited

Believe me when I say goodbye forever; is for good.

Your defenses were on high
Your walls built deep inside
Yeah, I’m a selfish bastard
But at least I’m not alone

Well, went to catch Ratatouille with Nuanting yesterday, & I swear it's damn nice!
So hilarious & somewhat touching?
I rate it 5 stars man!

Supposed to be watching with Melissa & Jackson, however she needs to be home early so, yeah.
Nuanting & I went walking around Century Square aimlessly, then Jackson called.
J.:"Eh go change your tix to 2pm leh""
Me:"For what?"
J.:"Melissa needs to be home early lah. We've changed ours already."
Me:"Okay okay."
(Hangs up)

Discussed with Nuanting about it, since we didn't have to be home early, we watch the 2.45pm show then.
Called Jackson back & said we aren't changing the tickets.
Soooooon, a text came.
J.:"Eh, we sitting beside Bernard & Lester!"
(Nuanting & I laughed our asses out)
N.:"Suay-ness man you all."

Went to pee before the show started, & right after the movie started I needed to pee again ._.
Well, went to clear my bladder, & continued watching the show.
Halfway through the show, "Shit man, I need to pee again".
Like first time need to pee twice during the movie.
After the show ended, couldn't decide anywhere to go, went home instead.

Darling's having his last 2papers for the week today!
I'm so happy! After days of not talking to him.
Well, it's rather exaggerated (:
In some way or other I guess?
I miss him so bad.
))':

My intentions never change
What I wanted stays the same
And I know what I should do
It's time to set myself on fire

♥Xoxo

Again and again and again and again I see your face in everything.

Look at the red red changes in the sky
Look at the separation in the border line
But don't look at everything here inside
And be afraid, afraid to speak your mind

I've finally gotten over oral! It sucks though, at least it's gotten over & done with!
Go Geraldine!
"What university/ college course would you take in the future?"
According to Nuances, they want us to start planning our future now.
Yeah, so I blabber on about engineering.
Dumb shit.

Another thing to rejoice!
Darling finished 3 N-level papers already, I guess?
& Taking the fourth one at2pm later.
Go Green Monster, go!

Oh yes, I'm gonna watch Ratatouille with Nuances later on.
It's like so last minute, I just said "Nuan Ting let's go catch a movie later" & she replied "Okay lo!".
So cool man.

Had a really time with Vannesa G. while walking to Whitesands just now.
All the hilarious stuffs that happened over the weekend.
Isn't it good? Family bonding!
She looks as if she have a love-bite on her neck(:
Damn cool!

I so love 30 Seconds to Mars man! It's so nice, the music I mean.
Again and again and again and again I see your face in everything
It took a moment the moment it could not be found?


Shit, I gotta run, I'm gonna be late meeting Nuances.
♥xoxo

A quiet desperation's building higher, I've got to remember this is just a game.

Lie awake in bed at night
And think about your life
Do you want to be different?
Try to let go of the truth
The battles of your youth
’Cause this is just a game



Omg, I love Liting's camera man!
The resolution like damn good!
When can I get mineeeeee?! ):

I've fought the Elite Four thrice out of boredom yesterday, & my Vibrava finally evolved to Flygon at Level 45 (:
Again I feel so proud of myself.
Damn that Latios, always appear so unexpected.
Twice already! I could've caught it if I withdraw Vileplume from the PC thing.
)):

I sound as if I'm Pokemon expert ._.
I'm so in love with it now, but there's nothing much I can do with it.
I need the guidebook! ))):
Triple Boo.

Boyfriend's having Cheena N-Level paper now, so hopefully everything's fine(:
He should thank me for reminding him to bring his dictionary, if not he wouldn't realise that it's out of battery.
Imy Sweetheart♥

It's a beautiful lie
It's a perfect denial
Such a beautiful lie to believe in
So beautiful, beautiful lie makes me

Thanks for reading me go on & on about Pokemon, Kthxbye.
xoxo♥

Let's take what hurts and write it all down on these paper walls and this empty house.

Let's burn a hole so we can climb out
Of these paper walls and this empty house
Don't listen too close
The words are like guns
With bullets that fly and kill what you've won

Let's burn a hole so we can climb out
Of these paper walls and this empty house
Where the only thing that's real is
Visions we have of ten years ago
Of stars in the sky and us down below
With streets and East Coast lines,
We kept this scene alive

It'd another boring Sunday to be spent at home hogging the comp & playing Gameboy.
Paper Walls of Yellowcard is really damn good, double thumbs up! (:
Why is Seventeen outta stock?!
I've been looking for it since, 2days ago?
Darn it.

Oh yes, I'm so proud of myself!
I've finally caught Rayquaza after so many failed attempts yesterday!
Even my brother is shocked (:
Am I smart or what?
& I caught it with an Ultra ball, only an Ultra ball!
Okay, this is getting nowhere.

I no longer have the Blogging bug.
The feeling of blogging whenever I turn on the comp has mysteriously disappeared.
Is that a sign of maturity?(:
Okay, I'm just deceiving myself.

I wanna have guitar lessons!
Why should They wanna learn as well?):
& Darling, just to let you know, I don't think you'd wanna teach me after reading this.
But I have totally no talent in music.
It's like a crippled trying to learn walking! (no offence)
):
Loser LOSER LOSER!
Why am I such a loser?!
)):

Here I am, still hold on to this dream we had
Won't let go of it
Hear me now, you will never be alone
Here I stand, won't turn back again
Won't leave you, I know how hard it's been
Hear me now, you will never be alone

It's not over tonight, just give me one more chance to make it right.

Yesterday's party was a total bore!
Other than the pizza & drinks, half the time I was praying to go home.
(:
The only thing I've contributed to the party was the 5bucks & a few balloons.
Pathetic, but there's really nothing much.

Went to Plaza Singapore with Boyfriend after he'd collected his English paper.
Waited for damn long, 'cuz he had tummy-ache):
Poor baby(:
Got to Carrefour to get Momma's Fbt, however there isn't her sizeeeeee! (:
So got her another type.

Had Subway again!
Oven-Roasted Chicken Breast (: & Chocolate cookie!

Walked around in search of Sabrina's present, but to no avail.
Then trained to Tampines to get something the took bus 3 to Loyang point.
Met Susan then brought Mac to tuition (:
Thanks baby for tolerating me, I was really tired ):

This post is getting very boring, pictures!


Favourite teachers + Mr Yap & Mr Das!(:
Happy Teachers' Day!