Imma loser.

The first song I thought of when I'm feeling down, is this.

If I were blue, would you be there for me,
And whisper in my ears that's ok.
Would you stand by me, let me hold you tight,
And say you love me one more time.

If I feel good, would you slow dance with me,
And touch my lips with tender loving care,
Would you die for me, would you run with me,
And never look back..

Would you be there to love, to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you'll always be the one,
to take my breath away?

Would you be there..

If I am away, would you still think of me,
And wished that you could hold me now.
Would you die for me, would you run with me,
All the way ...

Would you be there to save my soul tonight,
Would you swear that your love is always true,
Would you say that you always be there,
To kiss my pain away,

Would you be there ..... for me ...

An utter failure.

Watch your mouth hold your tongue boy because you're running out of breath,
Running out of time before every careless word that you utter render you
Utterly useless, now you're drowning in your own saliva trying to speak
Yourself to the top of your empty world, well keep on talking just keep on
Rambling you've got your mouth full

Now listen here's the pleasant part, you and I we fell apart
Now listen here's the pleasant part, you and I we fell apart

Why don't you make up your mind? Why can't you make up your mind?

Shut your mouth burn your bridges, throw your words like an attack and stab me
in the wait a second, wait a second what's that I just heard?
Never mind it's obviously worthless...
Now you're standing on your soapbox yelling from the rooftops,
everything you say is a lie... a lie... a lie... lie lie

Now listen here's the clever one who speaks before his thoughts are done
Now listen here's the clever one who speaks before his thoughts are done

Why can't you make up your mind?
Why can't you make up your mind?

Watch your mouth, hold your tongue some things are better left unsaid

Now I hope you're pleased you let your pride stand tall it danced within your
words right before you fall... right before you...fall

Why don't you... say that to my face?...
I've had it ripped out, torn down, so many fakes....
everything you, every time you, every word you say...
If I told you this was killing me would you, would you stop?

So in love with me, like sand to wet feet, I'll write both our names into the wet concrete.

There's poison in my drinking glass
Don't stop just sip it down
And in a swirling masquerade of sound
My body hits the ground
I'm beautiful when I'm asleep,
martini kisses land
on my blistered bloody scarlet lips
the bottles in my hand

Yeah baby, it's our 7mon-sary today! (:
& the end of Boyfriend's prelims.
Watching my favourite show- Forensic Heroes, uh-huh!

Boyfriend's off to school to check & go through his SS prelim papers.
I love Green Monster!
zomfg, my brain's malfunctioning, I can't think of anything else more to type into this post.
Another round of Trigonometry tonight again.
However, Honey's gonna fetch me there!
Imma happy kid again!

We're glistening like silver spoons
Beneath the summer night
Oh can you smell the subtle hint of frost
As the flowers start to cry
The Autumn winds are bringing graves
To all the emerald trees
They're so beautiful in their dismay
The colors slowly bleed

I'll build a wall around my heart that would only break a part for you.

It doesn't take much to learn
when the bridges that you burn
Leave you stranded feeling alone
It doesn't take much to cry
when you're living in a lie
And deceiving that someone who cares
If I could turn back the time
I would put you first in my life

I've finally went for Nyaa! For the first time ever! (:
I feel a sense of accomplishment.
As well as Melissa, we're not gonna be ultimate pon-ners again, I hope.(;
However, we were like slacking throughout the whole session.
I can't help it! Boyfriend's performing for Talent time please! ):
I feel so hurt, I've missed his turn once again?

Poor Darling, dropped the pick & had to use his fingers.
Sayang baby, sayang!
I guess I've totally embarrassed myself by falling down.
HAHAHA!
Fancy a 14+ person tripping over a step & falling on the knees, how hilarious is that?
(:
But I don't really care, laugh for all you want.

Finally tomorrow's our 7mon-sary! & Last paper for prelim!
(:
But we can't go out tomorrow, so yeah.
Next week honey! Our red skinnies!
Darling, I love you so much!

And now
The hills are getting hard to climb
I'm runnin' out of time
My decisions are pending on you
And I will accept the blame
for burnin' out the flame
Hoping the story will twist once again
If I could turn back the time
I would put you first in my life

Look for me inside your dreams, keep believing in what we're sharing.

If you wanna know
Tomorrow morning I have to leave
But wherever I may be
Best believe I'm thinking of you
I can't believe how much I love you

It's just another 2more days before our relationship turns 7months old! (:
Time passes so quick, unknowingly it's been 6months+ since we've gotten together.
& Darling, I still can't get enough of you!
Though obstacles do come our way, we've actually tried our best to overcome them.
We do quarrel all the time, or I should everytime.
However it only brought us closer to each other.
I love you my green monster, Alvin T.

All we have is here tonight
We don't want to waste this time
Give me something to remember
Baby put your lips on mine

Prelims are draining you out, better take care of your health, or not my heart would ache (:
Jiayou for the remaining papers! It's only 2days more to go, & coincidentally it's our 7mon-sary (:
Go honey, go!

Today's weather is great, so cooling, definitely better than warm days which keeps you perspiring through class.
Miss Ong wasn't feeling well, so we only did class-work.
This is like the 1st time in this whole year that she lax a bit.
Linear Law, ain't so bad afterall (:
Next up is Trigonometry!
Where cosine, sine, tangent, secant, co secant, cotangent & toa cah soh comes in.
Here goes my brain juices & cells ):

One thing that I'm really proud of, I've passed my Chinese test!
34/60, just tyco only.

For the first time, English afternoon program was cancelled! Except for 3e4 & 3n1.
Uh-huh, so had lunch with Vanny-poo in school (:
How nice can I get? Stayed on with her till Band started!
Ai xin wu can so sweet yeah babe? (;
Give it back & ask for more (Inside joke)
I love you Vanny-poo!

Just close your eyes
And you'll be here with me
Just look to your heart
And that's where I'll be
If you just close your eyes
Till your drifting away
You'll never be too far from me
If you close your eyes

I love Steven Lim, not!

This is like so hilarious! (:

Peace & harmony.

Ain't this cool, after showing the evidence & all to prove that Samantha wrong, the "anoymous" disappeared.
Now Samantha & Komal are like denying all the facts that are all against them saying it's not them who spammed.
Isn't it too much of an coincidence that the ip address are the same, & the "anoymous" just disappeared?
Think twice before you do anything, since we don't like the sight of each other, just avoid each other.
Don't do stupid things that disgrace yourself, okay? (:
Don't disrupt peace & harmony over such trivial things alright?
Takecare & God bless.

Gray clouds, black haze, so sure the sun could collapse your way.

Stay away
So you don't make a scene
Close your mouth
And try keeping it closed forever
Afraid of what you are
Afraid of how you learn to close your mouth
And try keeping it closed forever

Again a day spent at home.
I think I must be the best daughter alive to be staying at home almost every weekend, omg.
Why can't my parents just be flexible & give in to this relationship?
Causing me all the heartaches, is that really what parents should do?
Pain
It pains me just to see you and
I'd rather be lost in a river without
Pain, pain, pain

Boyfriend's busy studying for his prelims starting tomorrow (:
He's such a hardworking boy, if only I have have of his brain cells & attention span.
I'm not tooooo bad either, I spent two hours finishing all my undone homework & leftovers.
It's time for a change, baby!
EOYs are nearing, study study study!

& One last thing, I wanna learn electric guitar OH.SO.BADLY.
When when when can I finally get to learn learn learn?!
):
I'm so sad-ded, so many things I wanna do, yet I can't.

If you had the mind to just check out
Something better than nothing
I'm not the type to scream and shout
Yeah

3e3, Love.

Guitarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr, baby.

& I think I've forgotten to mention, I have this sudden urge to learn guitar.
HAHAHA!

It's all about you, honey.

Yesterday you asked me something I thought you knew
So I told you with a smile, it's all about you
Then you whispered in my ear and you told me too
Said you'd make my life worthwhile, it's all about you

Suddenly everything's going against my way.
Is being understanding such a tough thing to do?
Why can't I be more understanding towards him in the past?
Now that I'm no longer as carefree, it's hard to make up to him.
Don't be mistaken, the him I'm referring to is Alvin the Green Monster.

Darling, I'm so sorry I can't watch the fireworks with you tonight.
Thank you for making yourself free yesterday to watch The Secret & have our favourite Subway.
No matter whatever happens, I just wanna say, I love you my honey pie.

And I would answer all your wishes
If you ask me to
But if you deny me one of your kisses
Don't know what I'd do
So hold me close and say three words like you used to do
Dancing on the kitchen tiles
Yes you make my life worthwhile
So I told you with a smile
It's all about you

Bena.

Here's my post for Bena! Enjoy people!
& Samantha there is the one from 3N with lots of frrrreckles! Lousy English too!
Samantha Chong! Don't down-grade my precious Samantha Koh!

Hello everyone, it's Geraldine here to help Bena blog! (:
Everyone must be wondering who it is that is spamming Bena love's blog right?
So here's the answer! All thanks to me!



Right, after looking at all these, seen the ip add highlighted in yellow, lets see the masterpiece!



Now the truth is out! (:
& Look at the date the ones before these posts that "anoymous" has posted, it's 9thAugust yes?
Here's a link to Samantha's blog, looking at her post on 9th August, isn't she at her grandma's place?
So the ip add would be different yes?
& So coincidently only that day the ip add is diff?
Let's see (:
Uh-huh baby, what does that say? (:

So what have we done, with X and O's to mark our way home.

Why write with confidence?
Why try to save them?
We try to not forget
It's so much better there
Did you think you could make it on your own?
It was so much better there

Okay, I love this new image I've made!
It's definitely better than the previous one, yes? (:
Oh my my, I can't believe I've made this skin!
Okay, chill Geraldine, chill.

Now, the background's horrendous.
I need a new background So Badly ):
If only putting up faces as background wouldn't look weird, I'd have put up pictures of Boyfriend & I.
Hah, it's just "If only".


I'm having gastric though I've just eaten like, an hour ago or so.
): That's really bad.
It's another day to seeing Boyfriend, that's double Boo.
However, it's another day to watching The Secret with Honey!
That's something worth anticipating for, yes?
OMG, I miss you damn bad!
& Guess how am I gonna surprise you with breakfast on Monday!
That's a double yay!

My bro never fails to get on my nerves with his, "Are you done? I wanna use the comp."
So I'd reply him with, "Are you done annoying me? Can't you see I'm still using?"
That would send him away with disappointment in his face, I like that.
Now because of that, I only get to use for another 5minutes.
That left me disappointed in front of the monitor.

Kthxbye (:
So what have you done?
To make yourself a little bit happier?
I can feel the vibrations
When you said I'd feel nothing
I'm giving up, so give it up

You'll find out that this is more then anything how much it means to fit this scene seems wrong.

You can take what you'll say
I won't care that you have reasons to believe
That I'm living in this fear
You can take what you'll say
I won't care that you have spent you time on me
I've learned from life to sacrifice this all

My new skin's done! (:
Looks rather horrible to me though.
But nevertheless, it's my effort!
I'll put this up till I can create a better one!

Boyfriend went to bed while waiting for me to complete this skin, that lazy bum-ass!
Had Pizza-Hut for lunch, 2pathetically-small-slice, better than none
;D

Studied with Honey at my aunty's void-deck for less than half-an-hour yesterday, & spent the rest pigging, laughing, Quarreling.
After much dragging, teasing, laughing, he finally went up to my aunty's place feeling so embarrassed (:
Red-faced lovin' ♥

& My aunty actually told him to come up more often! (:
My grandma told him to stay for dinner, but he was too shy to (;
They're so good! (:

Hold me now as my world crashes down
Can't you see that they push me away
Hear that sound as our times running out
If you give me the chance
I will make you believe everything

I tried to be someone else, but nothing seemed to change.

What if I wanted to break
Laugh it all off in your face
What would you do?
What if I fell to the floor
Couldn't take this anymore
What would you do, do, do?

Had a great dinner at Tampines (:
My aunty's tummy is getting bigggggg!
& She's still going to Genting next week.

I miss Boyfriend so bad! ):
He actually spent the day at home studying, that's my darling!
Had a heart-breaking yet meaningful talk last night.
Rather contradicting, but it's true.
But we're alright now! I love you my baby!

I've bought my Book to A1 for Physics already, & I'll start studying from tomorrow onwards!
Although my homework are all undone ):
I must learn from Dear, be an A1 student to prove to my Momma that I can do it!

What if I wanted to fight
Beg for the rest of my life.
What would you do?
You say you wanted more
What are you waiting for
I'm not running from you

I've been waiting for the chance to reunite this increment.

Trying to find a way
Getting better every day
And I got you now I'm not alone
All I need in this life is one
One thing to believe in

I've decided to blog here once (:
Guess what guess what, the choir would be singing in front of the whole school tomorrow!
& Samantha, Jingjie & I would be solo-ing for We Are Singapore.
Cool, ain't it? (:
All 3e3 & Choir people please remember to be dressed in red tomorrow, alright?

It's the school's CCA Commendation cum Investiture today, Samantha & I stood at the back to cheer the people on who were on stage receiving their prizes.
Next.To.Mr.Gng
He was fine though, & smiling instead (:
He seemed pretty nice sometimes, yeah.
However I missed Boyfriend's turn, which means I didn't get to see him receiving the prize. ):
Mr Ng Tiak Kee was the Guest-of-Honour for today, yes I missed him!
But he wasn't too nice to Boyfriend?
:D

It'd be a super long weekend after tomorrow's short day (:
I Need To Go Out So Badly.
I need to watch The Secret!
Jay Chou is super-duper Hot, but he's definitely not hotter than my Boyfriend.
I love Alvin T. (:

I've seen many a face
From young and too old
I've stolen their faith and I have broken their souls
Was here before Christ had forgave you your sins
And paid your price and sealed your fate within
Days have come to an end
Today's the day that we meet again
The self inflicted inebriation guilt never lies

I'll write you just to let you know that I'm alright, can't say I'm sad to see you go.

♥

Just who would I have been, to be the one attached at all time to your hip?

♥

A.

Here's a post to my so-called "friend".
You think by telling bad stuffs about me, I wouldn't know?
Are you that dumb to not realise my Boyfriend's in your class?
Do you have to resort to all these to make people in the state exactly like you-friendless?
HAHAHAHA!

How old are you? Do you think you're still a primary school kid?
Do you think you're that great that everyone in your class is in awe with you?
Are you?
The fact is, you are not, not at all!
How great a person is, to have an imaginary boyfriend?
By saying this, I guess you'd know I'm actually talking about you.
"J. is in Los Angeles!" The next minute, "J. is in New York!" The next thing you know, "J. is in California!"
Whoops, I'm so sorry I've leaked out your secret.
But I don't fucking care.
Again, are you dumb, or are you dumb?

Your whole class are talking bad about you, it's not only me who's against you now.
I don't care what you actually tell other people, as long as my conscience is clear.
How about you? Everything in this post is true, even if you deny, you'd have a guilty conscience, no?
To think I've treated you as my best friend once, & told you every single thing.
Now you turn your back against me.
I didn't even do anything to provoke you, did I?
If yes, what did I do?
Come say it in my face then!
Backstabbing me, no way!
Continue, I like this, this is so fun.

You're treating me so coldly & treating my boyfriend like a friend, do you have a thing for him?
You think treating me coldly would have any effect?
I don't fucking care!

"You all still drink beer uh? J. drinks wine!"
Don't you find this fucking familiar?
The whole class is irritated by your bombing of your imaginary boyfriend.
There's no one in the world who would have an imaginary boyfriend, unless you're a mental case, or you're less that 4 of age.

'Nuff of venting, thank you very much.